Tuesday, July 15, 2008

An Open Letter to Some "Insomniacs"


Dear fakers-yes, YOU that think you have "insomnia." Liar.

I know your kind. Whine and whine to people that you can't sleep...yet you spend almost every waking minute during the day sleeping. It's not fair. You ruined the term for me and others that truly have insomnia.

I spoke to..uh, let's say Person A, about my insomnia. She had the audacity to say her daughter was also suffering from insomnia. This person I never see awake, but sleeping during the day/evening and up all night. You, faker, are ruining it for the rest of us that truly have insomnia. You go to the doctor and say, "I can't sleep at night," but you don't bother to say, "Oh, this has absolutely nothing to do with me sleeping a lot during the day or taking lenghty naps. during the day."

I'm not a genius, but maybe you shouldn't be sleeping DURING THE DAY. This would clear up the "insomnia" real quick. Trust me, I'm not an expert.

To person B, the one that will take three to five hour "power" naps during the day. Yes, I know you lie to yourself, but it isn't healthy. If you weren't such a bastard I would tell you. I have a feeling it would be a fruitless effort anyway. Your excuses would never end: "I hurt, I need to nap, I didn't sleep well last night, it's my meds" (Blah, blah, blah) I don't mind that you complain all the time, but when you start seeking medical attention for something like this, it's ridiculous to me. I know it's sometimes hard to stay awake during the day when you are tired, but one word: TRY.

Let me explain where I come from. I go to sleep, usually on time, around 10pm-ish. I get everything ready for the next day (so I won't get up and fixed it at night). At night I have continuous racing thoughts. It's like my brain is on crack. One thought to the other, "I have to do this tomorrow," "This happened because if this," "I should do this or try this", and "This needs to be done for tomorrow."

It's almost like my brain is OCD about coming up with things to remeber/do/change. I've tried making lists (I keep a notepad by the bed), prioritizing things, and mediation, . They don't work. I have to get up for work at 6:20am, sometimes earlier. I toss and turn. I wish I could turn my thoughts off, but I haven't figured out how. It's hell for me. I don't sleep during the day like a faker and complain I can't sleep. I actually crave sleep at night. I sleep about 3 to 4 hours a night. During the day I feel like a zombie in a surreal atmosphere, yet I can't allow myself to sleep during the day. (God bless McD's iced vanilla coffee)

So to those that say, "I can't sleep at night," yet sleep most of the day: I don't feel sorry for you and your lies.

Sorry